So how's everyone doing?

[Bannanachair]

How have you been, since whenever you were last here? Has your young adult life been good or bad? Are you still an internet person with a bunch of internet friends in other places, or have you drifted more towards the real world? Do you work, or are you like me, and still in school?

Basically, how's your life going?

[Baise-moi]

I've been pretty meh -- don't feel like my life is going anywhere, lost interest in most of my hobbies, and feel like there is no purpose to anything I do. It's not as though my life has gone south, though. I would say it's been pretty negative for me, but others I know have far worse or more stressful situations, so I suppose I ought to be grateful that I don't have those circumstances.

Still an internet person. I definitely have a real life friend group and all, but most of my friends remain online. I communicate with and find them through Discord servers, primarily. Usually in political communities, because in my final year of high school that became my interest. I'm sure I'd have more real life connections (aside from my high school group, which is still relatively intact and in contact) if my first couple years of college were normal and COVID wasn't a factor in my ability to be social.

I'm still in school, heading into my third year. Feels like things are moving along quickly.

Love hearing from everyone here from time to time, so I'm interested in hearing the way people's lives and interests have progressed. In particular I wonder how many people actually stuck with writing (and RPing) as a hobby or even career as I recall some people here intended. For others, I'm interested in what replaced that, if anything.

[Creative]

I'm not quite sure how my life is going to be honest.

In high-school and the few years to follow I was pretty confident with where my life was going. I had big circles of friends and things to do all the time. I had a girlfriend, and then I had a different girlfriend, and then I had a different girlfriend. I had a genuine passion for animation... Then I just suddenly didn't want to do anything; I stopped hanging out with friends, then I stopped talking to them, then I couldn't even bring myself to get into Discord with my closer friends.
It felt like all of the people I cared about or enjoyed spending time with were moving on suddenly and I chose to isolate myself in some self-imposed punishment for some reason.

My friends on the internet, I just accidentally cut them all off one day. It wasn't on purpose, I just sorta lost all interest in anything that wasn't weed or sleeping.
I would tell people I'd be hopping on in a few days, sometimes I'd even give myself a week to mentally prepare but when the time came I would always flake.

I guess that's what depression is, but I felt and still feel sometimes like I don't actually enjoy anything that I say I enjoy; I just do it because that's what I do: and I don't want to try to start over with new friends and new hobbies again.

But uh, I moved 'cross country for a change pace. New people, new sights, west coast best coast, etc etc.
I like it a lot out here and I think that's doing something for my mental.

- -

I have a job I don't really care about too much, but I'm hoping to land a job in one of the local game-shops.
They pay dungeon masters $18-22 an hour to start out here in some places; so I could just sell cards and D&D merch then on scheduled nights I could partake in stories for like $4 more an hour.

So, I've still been into RP. I just flopped into the tabletop setting more than forum. I played on a One Piece RP site for a long while, but I admittedly got frustrated with other people and bounced.



Aside from all that, I got diagnosed with heavy shit going on in my esophagus and my mom bit the dust.

What's up with you, Tim?

[Bannanachair]

I'm sort of all over the place. I spent a couple months trying to get my school's debate team coach fired, and the fucker's finally gone. I got three As and an F this semester, which is par for the course - I've never figured out how people get those grades in the middle, Bs and Cs: in my experience, if the professor likes you you get an A and if they don't you get an F.

I'm going out to Indiana for a job over the summer, so that'll be nice.

I took a creative writing course not the semester that just ended, but the one before that. Well, I took half the course then dropped it. Since taking that course, I haven't been able to write a damn thing; that professor was really good at killing all the enjoyment that I can get out of creative writing. I've been in a couple online d&d games; over breaks, I have one that I try to run with a few people from here.

[Tikobe]

I'm doing fine, I suppose. I suppose I could certainly be worse off.

I don't really talk to people anymore. Outside of one friend who I talk with every once in a while, my only conversations are with one friend of mine and then what's left of my family after all of the bickering drove a chunk of them away. I've been just stuck in this cycle of sleep, eat and work, although every once in a while there's something to play to help me kill some time. Right now it's Elden Ring, although now that I'm almost done with that monster of a game I'm not sure what I'll be doing. I've been working on an idea for a story, and almost done with it. I need to write the plotline and everything but the general gist of what I want has been sorted out. Not sure where I'll post it when I'm ready to start the writing for it. Thankfully, however, it's helped me get by with just kinda existing lol

[stacky]

I just returned from Ireland for a study abroad trip. It's such a beautiful country, I hated returning to the U.S.A. I was only there for two weeks, but I've been having terrible reverse culture shock because in Dublin & Galway I walked everywhere alone and felt safe. But where I live in the USA, it's considered a "safe area", but I still get frightened walking outside my apartment to the store that's just a 5 min walk away or even getting out of my car in a Walmart parking lot. I hate that I don't feel safe in the USA, so I'm kind of going through a feeling of loss from not having that freedom anymore. Also hate not having public transportation and a convenience store/cafe around every street corner. 

But overall I'm happy. I'm glad I finally got to travel for my first time out of the country. And I somehow managed to get all A's taking 17 hrs and working last semester, so I'm happy about that too. I decided to drop my first major and pursue Japanese fulltime, and either become a translator or professor. It's the one thing I feel like I can actually commit to and master, which is something I struggle with because I have a lot of hobbies that I never master, unfortunately. I'm also the president of Japan club now lol.

Besides that, all my friends have been real life. I struggle making online friends really. I feel too disconnected from online communities. I try to join discords and chat with people who have similar interests, but it just doesn't work for me. Like either the communities are too large so there are just too many people to talk to all at once, or it's too small and the chats are very dead. But I'm not too worried about it. I keep unexpectedly getting adopted by extroverted people at college and I just roll with it. I don't know what I'm doing, but I guess it's working lol

[pawz]

i got a cat and i love him. (his name is crow) pawz (the cat) is fine and lives on my dad's farm. wish i got paid more at my jobs tho. i work on a pizza farm. i have no friends irl but thats ok bcs i can play video games everyday with online friends

[BISEXUAL AND LEGO]

tim has coerced me back for the briefest of moments. i am well. 2022 thus far has involved me doing a lot of shit and hanging out with a lot of people, which has been a lot of fun. i got my second tattoo a couple months back, 'round the end of april, and i plan to get my ears pierced when i visit my younger sibling in a couple weeks. i finished my second novel earlier this year, at the end of march. fucking hated it but what can you do? now im writing something that i actually enjoy writing, which i'll probably have done by the end of summer.

additionally, i've picked up gardening. flowers are very cool. everyone should try to grow some.

[stacky]

Jun 8, 2022 21:46:17 GMT -4 BISEXUAL AND LEGO said:

tim has coerced me back for the briefest of moments. i am well. 2022 thus far has involved me doing a lot of shit and hanging out with a lot of people, which has been a lot of fun. i got my second tattoo a couple months back, 'round the end of april, and i plan to get my ears pierced when i visit my younger sibling in a couple weeks. i finished my second novel earlier this year, at the end of march. fucking hated it but what can you do? now im writing something that i actually enjoy writing, which i'll probably have done by the end of summer.

additionally, i've picked up gardening. flowers are very cool. everyone should try to grow some.

i envy people who garden. everytime i try to grow a plant it dies. I had a bamboo plant though that lasted about 4/5 months. But when I came from Ireland, it started to die and I haven't been able to recover it. Someone was taking care of it for me, so I don't know what happened.

[Tikobe]

Jun 9, 2022 22:34:48 GMT -4 stacky said:

Jun 8, 2022 21:46:17 GMT -4 BISEXUAL AND LEGO said:

tim has coerced me back for the briefest of moments. i am well. 2022 thus far has involved me doing a lot of shit and hanging out with a lot of people, which has been a lot of fun. i got my second tattoo a couple months back, 'round the end of april, and i plan to get my ears pierced when i visit my younger sibling in a couple weeks. i finished my second novel earlier this year, at the end of march. fucking hated it but what can you do? now im writing something that i actually enjoy writing, which i'll probably have done by the end of summer.

additionally, i've picked up gardening. flowers are very cool. everyone should try to grow some.

i envy people who garden. everytime i try to grow a plant it dies. I had a bamboo plant though that lasted about 4/5 months. But when I came from Ireland, it started to die and I haven't been able to recover it. Someone was taking care of it for me, so I don't know what happened.

If it helps, I once tried to take care of a cactus and it died in less than a year.

I live in Arizona, it's natural climate, and they're so easy to take care of. I seriously can't understand how it died so quickly.

[Benzo]

I've been fantastic, actually. For the first time in, well, probably ever I feel like my life is actually on track.

The DUI that led to my house arrest was a real low-point for me. Can't say I remember if it was that night specifically, but I know I had gone to that bar before specifically trying to drink myself to death, and when I was arrested I had my blood drawn & showed a .375 BAC. (.4 is considered lethal) How I managed not to kill anyone, myself included, or even cause any damage is beyond me, but I digress.
I was at a point where my boss was literally willing to get specifically me killed, be it by pulling my co-worker off duty due to a blizzard & road conditions whilst telling me to suck it up, (I got stuck at 12 AM that night for about two hours, and yeah... No tow truck is gonna come help you that late during a blizzard) or having me start closing alone in the midst of a string of robberies literally a stone's throw away from the station. The only person I've ever loved was using that to constantly manipulate me & God knows how much I had spent helping her, primarily with legal troubles, while my best friend just straight-up kept manipulating me for mpney, which you don't really get much of as a gas monkey in the first place. So yeah... Low point.


So, I spent most my nights drinking, a lot. Until that day I nearly killed myself.
Since then, my *very first* friend (Whom I hadn't seen in probably 20+ years) randomly came in one day, and thankfully kept in touch with my sister so he was able to recognize me. He offered me a job, and I took it.

I had since told both of those aforementioned manipulators to go to Hell, and now I was working at an injection molding factory. Super easy job, I just take various plastic scrap and grind it down to be reused, and the pay is great. In just 3 months, I got the first raise I had ever been given in my whole life, albeit that raise was standard, but I was given double the 90-day standard because my new & current boss actually appreciates me. He hired me knowing I was about to go through a lot of legal nonsense, and he seems to actually care. I mean... We've been closing early due to the heat wave and still get paid for the full day... I had to work in a blizzard and was told to grow up before, but now I got paid to go home early because my current boss was worried about heat stroke.

So, better job with super friendly people & great pay, got rid of the people dragging me down, and I just got off house arrest & severely cut down my drinking. The house arrest probably helped, but I barely even drink anymore! I was drinking a pint of 100 proof schnapps after work every. Single. Night. Now I barely finish 2 Smirnoff Ices (8 proof) and don't crave more. I'm actually happy now, and holy shit is it amazing. I don't even smoke weed either, I don't need to. I finally feel happy with life just the way it is.

[Benzo]

May 27, 2022 11:02:09 GMT -4 Bannanachair said:

I'm sort of all over the place. I spent a couple months trying to get my school's debate team coach fired, and the fucker's finally gone. I got three As and an F this semester, which is par for the course - I've never figured out how people get those grades in the middle, Bs and Cs: in my experience, if the professor likes you you get an A and if they don't you get an F.

I'm going out to Indiana for a job over the summer, so that'll be nice.

I took a creative writing course not the semester that just ended, but the one before that. Well, I took half the course then dropped it. Since taking that course, I haven't been able to write a damn thing; that professor was really good at killing all the enjoyment that I can get out of creative writing. I've been in a couple online d&d games; over breaks, I have one that I try to run with a few people from here.

Holy shit I missed that part whilst typing half a novella about my life. You're coming *here*? To Indiana?? What in the world job would draw you to the corn-fetish state?
If by any chance you're near the northern end, maybe throw me a shout eh?

[Bannanachair]

Jun 16, 2022 20:55:15 GMT -4 Benzo said:

I've been fantastic, actually. For the first time in, well, probably ever I feel like my life is actually on track.

The DUI that led to my house arrest was a real low-point for me. Can't say I remember if it was that night specifically, but I know I had gone to that bar before specifically trying to drink myself to death, and when I was arrested I had my blood drawn & showed a .375 BAC. (.4 is considered lethal) How I managed not to kill anyone, myself included, or even cause any damage is beyond me, but I digress.
I was at a point where my boss was literally willing to get specifically me killed, be it by pulling my co-worker off duty due to a blizzard & road conditions whilst telling me to suck it up, (I got stuck at 12 AM that night for about two hours, and yeah... No tow truck is gonna come help you that late during a blizzard) or having me start closing alone in the midst of a string of robberies literally a stone's throw away from the station. The only person I've ever loved was using that to constantly manipulate me & God knows how much I had spent helping her, primarily with legal troubles, while my best friend just straight-up kept manipulating me for mpney, which you don't really get much of as a gas monkey in the first place. So yeah... Low point.


So, I spent most my nights drinking, a lot. Until that day I nearly killed myself.
Since then, my *very first* friend (Whom I hadn't seen in probably 20+ years) randomly came in one day, and thankfully kept in touch with my sister so he was able to recognize me. He offered me a job, and I took it.

I had since told both of those aforementioned manipulators to go to Hell, and now I was working at an injection molding factory. Super easy job, I just take various plastic scrap and grind it down to be reused, and the pay is great. In just 3 months, I got the first raise I had ever been given in my whole life, albeit that raise was standard, but I was given double the 90-day standard because my new & current boss actually appreciates me. He hired me knowing I was about to go through a lot of legal nonsense, and he seems to actually care. I mean... We've been closing early due to the heat wave and still get paid for the full day... I had to work in a blizzard and was told to grow up before, but now I got paid to go home early because my current boss was worried about heat stroke.

So, better job with super friendly people & great pay, got rid of the people dragging me down, and I just got off house arrest & severely cut down my drinking. The house arrest probably helped, but I barely even drink anymore! I was drinking a pint of 100 proof schnapps after work every. Single. Night. Now I barely finish 2 Smirnoff Ices (8 proof) and don't crave more. I'm actually happy now, and holy shit is it amazing. I don't even smoke weed either, I don't need to. I finally feel happy with life just the way it is.

Shit, dude, this is all amazing! Congrats on everything starting to go your way.

Jun 16, 2022 21:11:55 GMT -4 Benzo said:

May 27, 2022 11:02:09 GMT -4 Bannanachair said:

I'm sort of all over the place. I spent a couple months trying to get my school's debate team coach fired, and the fucker's finally gone. I got three As and an F this semester, which is par for the course - I've never figured out how people get those grades in the middle, Bs and Cs: in my experience, if the professor likes you you get an A and if they don't you get an F.

I'm going out to Indiana for a job over the summer, so that'll be nice.

I took a creative writing course not the semester that just ended, but the one before that. Well, I took half the course then dropped it. Since taking that course, I haven't been able to write a damn thing; that professor was really good at killing all the enjoyment that I can get out of creative writing. I've been in a couple online d&d games; over breaks, I have one that I try to run with a few people from here.

Holy shit I missed that part whilst typing half a novella about my life. You're coming *here*? To Indiana?? What in the world job would draw you to the corn-fetish state?
If by any chance you're near the northern end, maybe throw me a shout eh?

Is Terre Haute close enough for you? I'll be working at RHIT.

[Benzo]

Jun 18, 2022 19:42:31 GMT -4 Bannanachair said:

Jun 16, 2022 20:55:15 GMT -4 Benzo said:

I've been fantastic, actually. For the first time in, well, probably ever I feel like my life is actually on track.

The DUI that led to my house arrest was a real low-point for me. Can't say I remember if it was that night specifically, but I know I had gone to that bar before specifically trying to drink myself to death, and when I was arrested I had my blood drawn & showed a .375 BAC. (.4 is considered lethal) How I managed not to kill anyone, myself included, or even cause any damage is beyond me, but I digress.
I was at a point where my boss was literally willing to get specifically me killed, be it by pulling my co-worker off duty due to a blizzard & road conditions whilst telling me to suck it up, (I got stuck at 12 AM that night for about two hours, and yeah... No tow truck is gonna come help you that late during a blizzard) or having me start closing alone in the midst of a string of robberies literally a stone's throw away from the station. The only person I've ever loved was using that to constantly manipulate me & God knows how much I had spent helping her, primarily with legal troubles, while my best friend just straight-up kept manipulating me for mpney, which you don't really get much of as a gas monkey in the first place. So yeah... Low point.


So, I spent most my nights drinking, a lot. Until that day I nearly killed myself.
Since then, my *very first* friend (Whom I hadn't seen in probably 20+ years) randomly came in one day, and thankfully kept in touch with my sister so he was able to recognize me. He offered me a job, and I took it.

I had since told both of those aforementioned manipulators to go to Hell, and now I was working at an injection molding factory. Super easy job, I just take various plastic scrap and grind it down to be reused, and the pay is great. In just 3 months, I got the first raise I had ever been given in my whole life, albeit that raise was standard, but I was given double the 90-day standard because my new & current boss actually appreciates me. He hired me knowing I was about to go through a lot of legal nonsense, and he seems to actually care. I mean... We've been closing early due to the heat wave and still get paid for the full day... I had to work in a blizzard and was told to grow up before, but now I got paid to go home early because my current boss was worried about heat stroke.

So, better job with super friendly people & great pay, got rid of the people dragging me down, and I just got off house arrest & severely cut down my drinking. The house arrest probably helped, but I barely even drink anymore! I was drinking a pint of 100 proof schnapps after work every. Single. Night. Now I barely finish 2 Smirnoff Ices (8 proof) and don't crave more. I'm actually happy now, and holy shit is it amazing. I don't even smoke weed either, I don't need to. I finally feel happy with life just the way it is.

Shit, dude, this is all amazing! Congrats on everything starting to go your way.

Jun 16, 2022 21:11:55 GMT -4 Benzo said:

Holy shit I missed that part whilst typing half a novella about my life. You're coming *here*? To Indiana?? What in the world job would draw you to the corn-fetish state?
If by any chance you're near the northern end, maybe throw me a shout eh?

Is Terre Haute close enough for you? I'll be working at RHIT.

'Bout a 3-hour drive. Find yourself any closer though & the sushi is on me.
i'm in the South Bend area. Not *actually* SB, I live in the corn-riddled outskirts of it.

[Duck14]

Just wanted to say it’s so cool to see so many of you doing well with things. Congrats guys.

[Tol]

Still weird, still socially inept, and most importantly of all, still hlegh

[Bannanachair]

Jun 19, 2022 0:14:47 GMT -4 Benzo said:

Jun 18, 2022 19:42:31 GMT -4 Bannanachair said:

Shit, dude, this is all amazing! Congrats on everything starting to go your way.

Is Terre Haute close enough for you? I'll be working at RHIT.

'Bout a 3-hour drive. Find yourself any closer though & the sushi is on me.
i'm in the South Bend area. Not *actually* SB, I live in the corn-riddled outskirts of it.

Sorry I didn't get to see you! I'm back on the east coast now.

My job went well, and my last year of college is starting soon.

[Benzo]

Aug 8, 2022 8:13:16 GMT -4 Bannanachair said:

Jun 19, 2022 0:14:47 GMT -4 Benzo said:

'Bout a 3-hour drive. Find yourself any closer though & the sushi is on me.
i'm in the South Bend area. Not *actually* SB, I live in the corn-riddled outskirts of it.

Sorry I didn't get to see you! I'm back on the east coast now.

My job went well, and my last year of college is starting soon.

All good man, work has been pretty demanding lately with how often we're switching materials, and thus how often I have to clean our my grinders and switch over.
Offers still always open, of course. Find your way over here and at least one exquisite meal is on me

[Leggo]

I leave for Japan in 6 days. Yet another attempt to rebrand and rebuild my life into something I’m content with. I turned 21 last month. Life is going far too fast for my taste. I feel like I’m going downstream in a canoe without any paddles.

I’m glad to see the people here again. I hope you’re all doing well.

[Tikobe]

Aug 16, 2022 14:58:29 GMT -4 Leggo said:

I leave for Japan in 6 days. Yet another attempt to rebrand and rebuild my life into something I’m content with. I turned 21 last month. Life is going far too fast for my taste. I feel like I’m going downstream in a canoe without any paddles.

I’m glad to see the people here again. I hope you’re all doing well.

Yeah, I get that feeling of going too fast. I'm 25 but it feels like I was 23 yesterday.

I hope you do well over there in Japan! Praying for the best for you!

[Duck14]

Aug 16, 2022 14:58:29 GMT -4 Leggo said:

I leave for Japan in 6 days. Yet another attempt to rebrand and rebuild my life into something I’m content with. I turned 21 last month. Life is going far too fast for my taste. I feel like I’m going downstream in a canoe without any paddles.

I’m glad to see the people here again. I hope you’re all doing well.

Absolutely get what you mean at the end there. It’s a whirlwind these days. Life hits hard.

Though hope you enjoy yourself in Japan. Welcome to the eastern hemisphere.

[Bannanachair]

Aug 16, 2022 14:58:29 GMT -4 Leggo said:

I leave for Japan in 6 days. Yet another attempt to rebrand and rebuild my life into something I’m content with. I turned 21 last month. Life is going far too fast for my taste. I feel like I’m going downstream in a canoe without any paddles.

I’m glad to see the people here again. I hope you’re all doing well.

Have a nice time in Japan!