stacky
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Post by stacky on Oct 3, 2020 0:51:24 GMT -4
hi its uh, sweetlillyrose im so sorry for coming back but i wanted to apologize cause i was a severely socially awkward kid who didn't know how to talk about anything properly and i just remember doing a lot of severely embarrassing things i didnt know who i was, what i was doing, etc. and im pretty sure i hurt alot of people too, especially in the roleplaying community i worked on improving myself alot and changed alot compared to how i was like 5 years ago and i can say i somewhat have social skills now, i think  i dont know who is still active here and if you dont remember anything about me, then epic, lets keep it that way lmao but for the people who do, im so sorry, hope you guys are doing well  |
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Post by Duck14 on Oct 3, 2020 1:46:50 GMT -4
Everyone did embarrassing things when they were younger. It’s part of growing up to look back and cringe a little.
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stacky
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this is sweetlillyrose, but you can call me stacky/stacie :)
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Post by stacky on Oct 3, 2020 1:54:59 GMT -4
Everyone did embarrassing things when they were younger. It’s part of growing up to look back and cringe a little. hi duck! you're right, but i did want to apologize cause this stuff does kind of haunt me lol and i did hurt people in the community, so yknow, im trying to make amends im surprised this place still exists, its almost like a timecapsule |
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Post by Baise-moi on Oct 4, 2020 20:42:54 GMT -4
I think everyone here recognizes and cringes when they look at their past.
I don't remember you as particularly intolerable, if that helps.
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stacky
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this is sweetlillyrose, but you can call me stacky/stacie :)
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Post by stacky on Oct 5, 2020 3:22:23 GMT -4
I think everyone here recognizes and cringes when they look at their past. I don't remember you as particularly intolerable, if that helps. okay thats good atleast but yeah, no i think everyone in here was around like middleschool age, some high school, when the roleplaying community was happening both of those are very awkward times im a freshman in college now and its weird to think about the years that have gone past and whats happened since then |
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Post by Bannanachair on Oct 18, 2020 21:15:27 GMT -4
Hey Sweetlilyrose! I remember you! We had the same birthday, January 3rd! You've got nothing to apologize for; we were all socially awkward to say the least. I hope you're doing better now.
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stacky
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this is sweetlillyrose, but you can call me stacky/stacie :)
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Post by stacky on Oct 18, 2020 21:28:55 GMT -4
Hey Sweetlilyrose! I remember you! We had the same birthday, January 3rd! You've got nothing to apologize for; we were all socially awkward to say the least. I hope you're doing better now. birthday twins! youre the 2nd person that i know personally with the same bday it feels rare to have a bday on this day but yes, I am doing a lot better. my life has changed very dramatically, for the good and bad, but I feel alot more confident socially and i can actually somewhat talk to people normally now lol |
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Post by Bannanachair on Oct 18, 2020 21:35:42 GMT -4
Hey Sweetlilyrose! I remember you! We had the same birthday, January 3rd! You've got nothing to apologize for; we were all socially awkward to say the least. I hope you're doing better now. birthday twins! youre the 2nd person that i know personally with the same bday it feels rare to have a bday on this day but yes, I am doing a lot better. my life has changed very dramatically, for the good and bad, but I feel alot more confident socially and i can actually somewhat talk to people normally now lol You're the only other person I know with our birthday, which is I think why I had such an easy time remembering you. I'm glad that you're doing better. A lot of us here were going through stuff when we were on the forums when we were younger (and continued to go through stuff after the rpf), and we often took it out in ways that made us seem like frankly awful people. I wrote a two-thousand-word essay/apology/self-psychoanalysis a couple months ago and honestly barely scratched the surface. If you ever need someone to talk to, there's basically always bound to be someone in this community able to help - we were shitty 15-year-olds, but everyone I'm still in contact with is pretty cool as an adult, and I'm still in semi-sporadic contact with about a dozen people from rpf and am able to reach a few more if necessary, and they can reach more, etc. |
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stacky
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Post by stacky on Oct 18, 2020 22:05:14 GMT -4
birthday twins! youre the 2nd person that i know personally with the same bday it feels rare to have a bday on this day but yes, I am doing a lot better. my life has changed very dramatically, for the good and bad, but I feel alot more confident socially and i can actually somewhat talk to people normally now lol You're the only other person I know with our birthday, which is I think why I had such an easy time remembering you. I'm glad that you're doing better. A lot of us here were going through stuff when we were on the forums when we were younger (and continued to go through stuff after the rpf), and we often took it out in ways that made us seem like frankly awful people. I wrote a two-thousand-word essay/apology/self-psychoanalysis a couple months ago and honestly barely scratched the surface. If you ever need someone to talk to, there's basically always bound to be someone in this community able to help - we were shitty 15-year-olds, but everyone I'm still in contact with is pretty cool as an adult, and I'm still in semi-sporadic contact with about a dozen people from rpf and am able to reach a few more if necessary, and they can reach more, etc. Thank you so much, its nice to know that i feel welcomed here again I always thought I was one of the black sheep on the RPF, to be honest, but you're right: we were all shitty teenagers/tweens, and I'm sure I probably had my episodes like everyone else. All I can do now is contemplate my past and improve upon it. I've thought about posting on here like a little autobiography of whats been going on in my life during the time period that I wasn't on here, but I've been hesitant to just cause its a lot to process and write down just might later on, depending on how i feel |
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Post by Bannanachair on Oct 18, 2020 22:09:11 GMT -4
You're the only other person I know with our birthday, which is I think why I had such an easy time remembering you. I'm glad that you're doing better. A lot of us here were going through stuff when we were on the forums when we were younger (and continued to go through stuff after the rpf), and we often took it out in ways that made us seem like frankly awful people. I wrote a two-thousand-word essay/apology/self-psychoanalysis a couple months ago and honestly barely scratched the surface. If you ever need someone to talk to, there's basically always bound to be someone in this community able to help - we were shitty 15-year-olds, but everyone I'm still in contact with is pretty cool as an adult, and I'm still in semi-sporadic contact with about a dozen people from rpf and am able to reach a few more if necessary, and they can reach more, etc. Thank you so much, its nice to know that i feel welcomed here again I always thought I was one of the black sheep on the RPF, to be honest, but you're right: we were all shitty teenagers/tweens, and I'm sure I probably had my episodes like everyone else. All I can do now is contemplate my past and improve upon it. I've thought about posting on here like a little autobiography of whats been going on in my life during the time period that I wasn't on here, but I've been hesitant to just cause its a lot to process and write down just might later on, depending on how i feel Literally the only drama I remember you being involved in was (and I could be wrong and just mistaking you for someone else, in which case, please do tell me) you mentioned being ace and someone else was being a bigoted shit saying things like "well that's just dumb because sex is good" and you were clearly in the right there. And don't stress doing an autobiography. It can be cathartic, but obligating yourself would just add pressure. Do what's right for you. |
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Post by stacky on Oct 18, 2020 22:20:53 GMT -4
Thank you so much, its nice to know that i feel welcomed here again I always thought I was one of the black sheep on the RPF, to be honest, but you're right: we were all shitty teenagers/tweens, and I'm sure I probably had my episodes like everyone else. All I can do now is contemplate my past and improve upon it. I've thought about posting on here like a little autobiography of whats been going on in my life during the time period that I wasn't on here, but I've been hesitant to just cause its a lot to process and write down just might later on, depending on how i feel Literally the only drama I remember you being involved in was (and I could be wrong and just mistaking you for someone else, in which case, please do tell me) you mentioned being ace and someone else was being a bigoted shit saying things like "well that's just dumb because sex is good" and you were clearly in the right there. nd don't stress doing an autobiography. It can be cathartic, but obligating yourself would just add pressure. Do what's right for you. Lmao, the sex conversations, yeah no that was me. I am still Ace to this day, funnily enough. I don't remember what I exactly said in those convos, but I do remember them. And you're right, I won't stress over it, but it's a thought I had whenever I first rejoined, just something to tell everybody how my life has been these last few years |
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Post by Bannanachair on Oct 18, 2020 22:23:29 GMT -4
Literally the only drama I remember you being involved in was (and I could be wrong and just mistaking you for someone else, in which case, please do tell me) you mentioned being ace and someone else was being a bigoted shit saying things like "well that's just dumb because sex is good" and you were clearly in the right there. nd don't stress doing an autobiography. It can be cathartic, but obligating yourself would just add pressure. Do what's right for you. Lmao, the sex conversations, yeah no that was me. I am still Ace to this day, funnily enough. I don't remember what I exactly said in those convos, but I do remember them. And you're right, I won't stress over it, but it's a thought I had whenever I first rejoined, just something to tell everybody how my life has been these last few years You're not the only ace on the forums. Pawz is ace/aro, I'm either ace or something very similar (gray or demi, maybe), I'm positive there's others that just don't immediately come to mind. Overall the forums turned out to be super queer, which I honestly don't know whether that's something that's surprising or not. |
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Post by stacky on Oct 18, 2020 23:10:44 GMT -4
Lmao, the sex conversations, yeah no that was me. I am still Ace to this day, funnily enough. I don't remember what I exactly said in those convos, but I do remember them. And you're right, I won't stress over it, but it's a thought I had whenever I first rejoined, just something to tell everybody how my life has been these last few years You're not the only ace on the forums. Pawz is ace/aro, I'm either ace or something very similar (gray or demi, maybe), I'm positive there's others that just don't immediately come to mind. Overall the forums turned out to be super queer, which I honestly don't know whether that's something that's surprising or not. Oh thats interesting, I didn't know that. I don't exactly label myself anymore, so people only know if I'm Ace or not by asking really. If I had to fully describe myself, It'd be Ace/Heteroromantic (Although I'm still confused about if I like all genders or not, I just say hetero for right now) |
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Post by Bannanachair on Oct 18, 2020 23:18:16 GMT -4
You're not the only ace on the forums. Pawz is ace/aro, I'm either ace or something very similar (gray or demi, maybe), I'm positive there's others that just don't immediately come to mind. Overall the forums turned out to be super queer, which I honestly don't know whether that's something that's surprising or not. Oh thats interesting, I didn't know that. I don't exactly label myself anymore, so people only know if I'm Ace or not by asking really. If I had to fully describe myself, It'd be Ace/Heteroromantic (Although I'm still confused about if I like all genders or not, I just say hetero for right now) Oh yeah, I mostly play it coy. If my friends in real life ask me what my orientation is, I'll raise an eyebrow and say "you really can't tell?" and then move onto something else in the conversation. It gets some pretty good reactions. |
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Post by stacky on Oct 18, 2020 23:38:19 GMT -4
Oh thats interesting, I didn't know that. I don't exactly label myself anymore, so people only know if I'm Ace or not by asking really. If I had to fully describe myself, It'd be Ace/Heteroromantic (Although I'm still confused about if I like all genders or not, I just say hetero for right now) Oh yeah, I mostly play it coy. If my friends in real life ask me what my orientation is, I'll raise an eyebrow and say "you really can't tell?" and then move onto something else in the conversation. It gets some pretty good reactions. Love that, lmao |
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Post by THE MIGHTY LEGO on Nov 9, 2020 0:06:43 GMT -4
I have been compelled by outside forces to return, if briefly.
Everyone was rather garbage as a child/teenager. The forums promoted fucking awful mindsets, influenced by a group of people already dealing with undue amount of whatever other bullshit. You're probably fine, so don't worry to much about the ancient days. The forums are dead and roblox is hell. So long as you weren't vaguely a pedophile like Soard or vaguely a ghost like swede, anything you've done in the past is miniscule shit.
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Post by God Bebi Satan on Nov 9, 2020 0:13:52 GMT -4
YOU GUYS ARE PROBABLY COOL.
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Post by stacky on Nov 9, 2020 21:02:10 GMT -4
I have been compelled by outside forces to return, if briefly. Everyone was rather garbage as a child/teenager. The forums promoted fucking awful mindsets, influenced by a group of people already dealing with undue amount of whatever other bullshit. You're probably fine, so don't worry to much about the ancient days. The forums are dead and roblox is hell. So long as you weren't vaguely a pedophile like Soard or vaguely a ghost like swede, anything you've done in the past is miniscule shit. Alright, thank you. I don't think I did anything terrible terrible, but there were like 1 or 2 people I ended up hurting I'm pretty sure. But I try not to contemplate on it too much, mainly cause, you're right, we were children and were negatively influenced. |
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Post by God Bebi Satan on Nov 11, 2020 2:56:09 GMT -4
HURTING FOLKS IS A KEY ELEMENT OF BUILDING CHARACTER. WITHOUT SUFFERING THERE IS NO TRUE PROGRESS. SPEEDRAN THAT SHIT EARLY NOW IM THE COOLEST GUY I KNOW.
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Post by stacky on Nov 12, 2020 3:49:14 GMT -4
HURTING FOLKS IS A KEY ELEMENT OF BUILDING CHARACTER. WITHOUT SUFFERING THERE IS NO TRUE PROGRESS. SPEEDRAN THAT SHIT EARLY NOW IM THE COOLEST GUY I KNOW. what is the max capacity of people you gotta hurt before you become the coolest guy |
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Post by Bannanachair on Nov 12, 2020 8:28:39 GMT -4
HURTING FOLKS IS A KEY ELEMENT OF BUILDING CHARACTER. WITHOUT SUFFERING THERE IS NO TRUE PROGRESS. SPEEDRAN THAT SHIT EARLY NOW IM THE COOLEST GUY I KNOW. what is the max capacity of people you gotta hurt before you become the coolest guy I've hurt, in some way or another, easily well over a hundred people and I'm still not the coolest guy yet. |
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Post by Duck14 on Nov 12, 2020 12:30:30 GMT -4
HURTING FOLKS IS A KEY ELEMENT OF BUILDING CHARACTER. WITHOUT SUFFERING THERE IS NO TRUE PROGRESS. SPEEDRAN THAT SHIT EARLY NOW IM THE COOLEST GUY I KNOW. what is the max capacity of people you gotta hurt before you become the coolest guy Let’s just say you have a long way to go. |
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Post by God Bebi Satan on Nov 12, 2020 16:45:35 GMT -4
HURTING FOLKS IS A KEY ELEMENT OF BUILDING CHARACTER. WITHOUT SUFFERING THERE IS NO TRUE PROGRESS. SPEEDRAN THAT SHIT EARLY NOW IM THE COOLEST GUY I KNOW. what is the max capacity of people you gotta hurt before you become the coolest guy Approx. somewhere over 200, including roughly 3-4 people you actually care about. Hurting strangers is easy but when it's people you care about it puts introspective little seeds where vitriol and anger used to be. You eventually become tired of being angry and find better places to spend that energy. JUST KIDDING HURT FOUR BILLION PEOPLE FUCK YOU |
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Post by Baise-moi on Nov 30, 2020 22:23:10 GMT -4
what is the max capacity of people you gotta hurt before you become the coolest guy Approx. somewhere over 200, including roughly 3-4 people you actually care about. Hurting strangers is easy but when it's people you care about it puts introspective little seeds where vitriol and anger used to be. You eventually become tired of being angry and find better places to spend that energy. JUST KIDDING HURT FOUR BILLION PEOPLE FUCK YOU At that point why not go the full way and hurt all 8 billion |
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Post by happysupercooldude??? on Nov 30, 2020 22:34:44 GMT -4
Approx. somewhere over 200, including roughly 3-4 people you actually care about. Hurting strangers is easy but when it's people you care about it puts introspective little seeds where vitriol and anger used to be. You eventually become tired of being angry and find better places to spend that energy. JUST KIDDING HURT FOUR BILLION PEOPLE FUCK YOU At that point why not go the full way and hurt all 8 billion Dedicate your entire life to discovering extraterrestrial species and then push for the legal status of the aliens as 'people', and then hurt them too. |
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