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Post by Bannanachair on Jun 28, 2020 8:32:48 GMT -4
Also I'm twenty one in september if you want to rsvp for my b-day <3 Huh. I thought you'd be older, but you're actually just a few months older than me - I'll be twenty one in January. |
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Post by Baise-moi on Jun 28, 2020 10:26:16 GMT -4
I was 12, maybe 13 upon getting really involved in the RPF. Eighteen going on nineteen later this summer now.
Age really isn't an excuse when you have people who were younger and less mature who didn't partake in this kind of crap, but I've said my piece and I'm satisfied with how I've already put it. Shouldn't follow you through your life, but really, the amount of people that are going to see this and the effect it's going to ultimately have is negligible.
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Post by Lego on Jun 28, 2020 13:51:27 GMT -4
Correct. I'm not concerned with who'll see it. My online persona has no connection to who I am in real life anyway, so it wouldn't much matter.
I've just maintained that A) dwelling on this so much is unhealthy. Like, I came out of an abusive relationship not long ago and for months after I was consumed by thinking about it. It was all I thought about, and all I talked about. It's a super easy hole to sink into that I've only just started climbing out of, and it fucking sucks. I genuinely worry that purring is falling down that same hole, and I think there are better ways to address the trauma and abuse.
B) Revealing things told to you in confidence is a dick move. That DM about Zorrow was told to Purring genuinely, and with an understanding that it wouldn't be shared. Even if you're just shouting it to the graveyard, it's a shitty thing to do.
In closing, I'll also maintain that age, while perhaps not an excuse, is an explanation. We were all stupid kids in a toxic environment. Does that excuse all the shitty things we said? Fuck. I was a horrible little bigot back in the day, and no amount of being a dumb kid will excuse that. But we're all grown now, and we've matured out of those mindsets. You've no need to forgive anyone. I certainly don't expect forgiveness, and I've told purring as much. Just please understand that there are no real people in the video posted here, merely ghosts. People grow and change as time goes on, ghosts remain the same.
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Post by passion fruit on Jun 30, 2020 11:45:03 GMT -4
its weird how i can recollect accounts like enbankments existing but i dont remember seeing many of those posts on rpf, though i wasnt really the most active so its likely i just missed most of the threads they were on.
the video was funny though even if that wasnt the intention. interesting too, even if i had to constantly pause to read all the bits i wanted to see.
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Post by Danonymous on Jun 30, 2020 16:18:43 GMT -4
its weird how i can recollect accounts like enbankments existing but i dont remember seeing many of those posts on rpf, though i wasnt really the most active so its likely i just missed most of the threads they were on. the video was funny though even if that wasnt the intention. interesting too, even if i had to constantly pause to read all the bits i wanted to see. likewise. bear in mind that i've probably also permanently fucked up my memory in terms of delving into it as a bank, or making new ones. after all, doing drugs has that effect on you. but watching that video made me realise how blindsided i was, and it doesnt surprise me that i didnt even acknowledge the half of it. to be fair, i am probably the youngest person here-- not even 19 yet-- so i probably wouldnt understand it, nor have the moral obligation to intervene. but damn, reading this post serves as a godawful reminder that society really is anything but a cancer. im not going to compare this to the magnitude of some current c&g (not the c&g forum anymore, it has schismed into an oligopoly) drama taking place that literally revealed to me one of my old friends (and an idol of sorts) as a rapist, stalker, and a depraved asshole conspiring to murder. nope, it'd be unfair to compare that to this, but i guess my message is still that the internet is fucked up and when we fall into it, we are bred and contorted into saying those nasty things wifi, desh and whoever-the-fuck-else said. also i didnt fully read thru the responses because you guys need to stop writing prose and include tl;drs. ive grown lazy and sloppy. |
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Post by Lego on Jun 30, 2020 19:50:22 GMT -4
Imagine not reading the discourse. Coward.
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Post by passion fruit on Jun 30, 2020 23:33:15 GMT -4
its weird how i can recollect accounts like enbankments existing but i dont remember seeing many of those posts on rpf, though i wasnt really the most active so its likely i just missed most of the threads they were on. the video was funny though even if that wasnt the intention. interesting too, even if i had to constantly pause to read all the bits i wanted to see. likewise. bear in mind that i've probably also permanently fucked up my memory in terms of delving into it as a bank, or making new ones. after all, doing drugs has that effect on you. but watching that video made me realise how blindsided i was, and it doesnt surprise me that i didnt even acknowledge the half of it. to be fair, i am probably the youngest person here-- not even 19 yet-- so i probably wouldnt understand it, nor have the moral obligation to intervene. but damn, reading this post serves as a godawful reminder that society really is anything but a cancer. im not going to compare this to the magnitude of some current c&g (not the c&g forum anymore, it has schismed into an oligopoly) drama taking place that literally revealed to me one of my old friends (and an idol of sorts) as a rapist, stalker, and a depraved asshole conspiring to murder. nope, it'd be unfair to compare that to this, but i guess my message is still that the internet is fucked up and when we fall into it, we are bred and contorted into saying those nasty things wifi, desh and whoever-the-fuck-else said. also i didnt fully read thru the responses because you guys need to stop writing prose and include tl;drs. ive grown lazy and sloppy. im still in highschool, so id prolly take the cake for biggest baby here. i dont think you can really blame the internet as a whole for people being assholes though, except maybe the anonymity making them more bold. cant believe there was what looked like an rpf discord that wasnt super inactive tho smh. it seems like it was only going on in like 2017 really i initially skimmed all the long posts but then reread them fully after analyzing the entire video. |
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Post by Lego on Jul 5, 2020 17:10:48 GMT -4
Yeah, because it wasn't really an RPF discord per-se. It was a discord *of* RPF members, but that was kinda the extent of it. The clusterfucc was just a collective of people from the RPF that were friends individually. We were a community within the community, essentially.
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Post by Lego on Jul 5, 2020 17:11:49 GMT -4
Oh also, that was only when the discord was made. The clusterfucc was a Skype group for years before it was a discord server.
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Post by Craxian on Jul 6, 2020 9:58:33 GMT -4
damn i didn't really realize how shitty some of the stuff that happened was. sorry u had to go thru that, and sorry if I ever contributed to it!! glad u seem to be in a better place now tho 👍 and Tim, i hope you find a successful path out of the cycle you find yourself in if that's what you desire don't really know everyone well enough to speak less vaguely than that. if anything im a bit surprised by just how much i didn't know
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Post by happysupercooldude??? on Jul 30, 2020 1:49:30 GMT -4
Thanks to this video, I just realized how wrong I was about the RPF. Everyone else was right. I was seeing the past all rose-tinted thanks to the nostalgia.
Damn, Purring, I'm really sorry. For the longest time, you held a position in my life where I was comfortable knowing that even if I had a horrific day, I'd be able to log back on and chat about random stuff with you, and I miss that and I miss not letting my incompetence get in the way of being as nice as I could to you.
In fact, I'm sorry to anyone here I wronged, since apologizing like that might be the tiniest step towards undoing crap like this. I've been an immature and almost insufferable twat, but finding the mental strength to admit that is something I'm glad to be able to do, and to an extent, I feel like I gained that ability through the friendship a few people on the RPF provided me.
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