Post by The Jiggler on Feb 5, 2017 6:23:30 GMT -4
So, I met this girl named Jazmín* over FaceTime through my cousin about a day or two before Christmas. We talked a lot over the Winter Break, within a week we had FaceTimed for like 40 hours in total; with her even revealing her like super personal life and all the shit she's gone through. Until a few days after I met her I didn't know that she was getting over a very recent and nasty break up (he had cheated on her twice). It made her turn to alcohol consumption even. After a few more times of us FaceTiming, she eventually got fucking hammered (she drank about a pint of tequila) and her aunt and uncle found her shitfaced in her bed the next morning. She went to therapy (I think she's still in it) and I'm really happy for her that she did. After awhile of us still talking a lot and FaceTiming a lot I began to grow a crush. I ended up being substantially more aggressive with my pursuits (I wrote her long ass paragraphs and always complimented her) and she would respond with "Awww" and some hearts followed afterward. Eventually, on New Year's Eve, I grew the gonads and told her how I felt (plus after outstanding support from my friends). After a day she responded with a very long paragraph detailing with the shit she was going through with her family, and how she wasn't actually interested in anyone but made amends with her ex-boyfriend and started a clean slate with him.
I understood, having the fact that it was only about two weeks that we had known each other, and I took it very well. I didn't complain or beg, I just asked if we could still be friends and she said of course. So for the next 5 weeks, I've been hung up on this girl still, having genuine feelings for her and being ecstatic whenever I would see her name pop up in my notifications. We didn't talk that much anymore because we wanted to normalize things before we started FaceTiming again. She was continuously complaining still that her ex-boyfriend was a dickhead and she would never be interested in him again. We started to talk more and more and we've recently come back to a point where we'll FaceTime occasionally and talk regularly on Snapchat. But then earlier (like two hours) she and I were talking and I asked her how her day was going. She said, "just got like 28383737x better
" and I got hyped as fuck because I thought she was talking about me since I was talking to her... and then she sends me a snap. I hesitate for a second or two staring at the red box, which reflected into my eyes. And then I opened it. My heart dropped. I saw her and her ex-boyfriend together, nuzzled against each other; his face buried in her neck with her smiling graciously.
I lay stunned in disbelief because I knew who it was and I felt my heart drop. Then I see a message pop up on my screen:
"u ok?" she says.
She knows how I felt about them talking and how happy I was for her when she said she'd never fuck with him again. And she and I have talked so much shit about him too, so I was especially surprised. But having already been turned down by her and knowing she wasn't interested in me I played it cool and pretended like I didn't know who it was. And then I proceeded to be dumbfounded and talked to her in fragmented sentences trying to wrap my head around why she would even look at this person again after she admitted to legitimately hating him. I'll continue to text her fragmented sentences for about and hour and she'll respond ":/" or "ik:/". I even showed her the conversation where she said she'd never fuck with him again.
And so I here I lay, venting out my problems to a forum where probably zero to none will care about this. But I had to seek out somewhere for advice or support.
*Jazmín is not her name
I understood, having the fact that it was only about two weeks that we had known each other, and I took it very well. I didn't complain or beg, I just asked if we could still be friends and she said of course. So for the next 5 weeks, I've been hung up on this girl still, having genuine feelings for her and being ecstatic whenever I would see her name pop up in my notifications. We didn't talk that much anymore because we wanted to normalize things before we started FaceTiming again. She was continuously complaining still that her ex-boyfriend was a dickhead and she would never be interested in him again. We started to talk more and more and we've recently come back to a point where we'll FaceTime occasionally and talk regularly on Snapchat. But then earlier (like two hours) she and I were talking and I asked her how her day was going. She said, "just got like 28383737x better
" and I got hyped as fuck because I thought she was talking about me since I was talking to her... and then she sends me a snap. I hesitate for a second or two staring at the red box, which reflected into my eyes. And then I opened it. My heart dropped. I saw her and her ex-boyfriend together, nuzzled against each other; his face buried in her neck with her smiling graciously. I lay stunned in disbelief because I knew who it was and I felt my heart drop. Then I see a message pop up on my screen:
"u ok?" she says.
She knows how I felt about them talking and how happy I was for her when she said she'd never fuck with him again. And she and I have talked so much shit about him too, so I was especially surprised. But having already been turned down by her and knowing she wasn't interested in me I played it cool and pretended like I didn't know who it was. And then I proceeded to be dumbfounded and talked to her in fragmented sentences trying to wrap my head around why she would even look at this person again after she admitted to legitimately hating him. I'll continue to text her fragmented sentences for about and hour and she'll respond ":/" or "ik:/". I even showed her the conversation where she said she'd never fuck with him again.
And so I here I lay, venting out my problems to a forum where probably zero to none will care about this. But I had to seek out somewhere for advice or support.
*Jazmín is not her name
