Post by Deleted on Jun 6, 2015 5:57:03 GMT -4
I'ma tell you about my irl problems.
In real life, I suffer from self-doubt issues and social anxiety.
My self-doubt issues are where I think of myself as a dumbass, ugly motherfucker, a cunt, etc. and it slowly kills me inside to where it makes me extremely sad, and I cry a lot from it. My boyfriend had to help me regather myself today and stop crying and being sad from this because I was being judged and accused of all day today, and I was hurting myself mentally and emotionally, and I was on the verge of hurting myself physically by tying a sash around my stomach tightly, to where I was barely breathing.
My self-doubt issues started when I got my social anxiety from being both bullied and cyber-bullied, plus being rejected from the society of people around.
I have to deal with this everyday, and I can't get rid of it. But my boyfriend helps me minimize it by complimenting me, and making me feel happy and loved everyday.
Now, my social anxiety was developed like my self-doubt issues, like I said, and it is so hard for me to conversate with people unless I know you well enough to where I can talk and trust you enough. Now, I have managed to cope with this, and now I have three great best friends, friends, and a boyfriend.
But, there have been times in my life where it has worsen because I made friends with people, only to know that they never really liked me, and they left me alone to rot. This happened at least 5 times in my life. This effects me a lot since it is hard to put trust into people, and once you do, then it hurts badly when you learn that you can't trust them no more, and that you put so much work into trying to trust them. My self-doubt issues have also increased a lot because of this.
But anyways, when I'm on the internet, I do not have these problems, and I do not care if I am judged or not on the internet. It is weird how it works, but I believe to have made an internet alter-ego of myself on here that doesn't have these problems, and it has the personality of an optimistic, supportive, energetic, unshy person. So, yeah.
In real life, I suffer from self-doubt issues and social anxiety.
My self-doubt issues are where I think of myself as a dumbass, ugly motherfucker, a cunt, etc. and it slowly kills me inside to where it makes me extremely sad, and I cry a lot from it. My boyfriend had to help me regather myself today and stop crying and being sad from this because I was being judged and accused of all day today, and I was hurting myself mentally and emotionally, and I was on the verge of hurting myself physically by tying a sash around my stomach tightly, to where I was barely breathing.
My self-doubt issues started when I got my social anxiety from being both bullied and cyber-bullied, plus being rejected from the society of people around.
I have to deal with this everyday, and I can't get rid of it. But my boyfriend helps me minimize it by complimenting me, and making me feel happy and loved everyday.
Now, my social anxiety was developed like my self-doubt issues, like I said, and it is so hard for me to conversate with people unless I know you well enough to where I can talk and trust you enough. Now, I have managed to cope with this, and now I have three great best friends, friends, and a boyfriend.
But, there have been times in my life where it has worsen because I made friends with people, only to know that they never really liked me, and they left me alone to rot. This happened at least 5 times in my life. This effects me a lot since it is hard to put trust into people, and once you do, then it hurts badly when you learn that you can't trust them no more, and that you put so much work into trying to trust them. My self-doubt issues have also increased a lot because of this.
But anyways, when I'm on the internet, I do not have these problems, and I do not care if I am judged or not on the internet. It is weird how it works, but I believe to have made an internet alter-ego of myself on here that doesn't have these problems, and it has the personality of an optimistic, supportive, energetic, unshy person. So, yeah.
